Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me.
Psalm 51: 10:12
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The Other Side of the Lake
It’s been a while since I last posted. I feel like the dust has settled after I first went public about spiritual abuse and I have now started walking on the long road to freedom. For the whole year since I first reported the abuse to the NST of the Church of England I found… Read more
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False Idols
As I said in a previous post, when the National Safeguarding Team of the Church of England concluded their investigation which substantiated claims against Mike Pilavachi, I was asked what I wanted and I said I wanted to be heard and I wanted a seat at the table so that together as a church we… Read more
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Servant Leadership
I have been chewing on the importance of Servant Leadership for some time now. As someone who has frequently found myself in leadership positions throughout my life, and who has been a disciple of Jesus Christ since I was thirteen, I have witnessed firsthand the difference between leading with a servant heart and leading with… Read more
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The Sound of Silence
It feels like now I’ve opened the floodgates the words are flowing out of me faster than a multi ball on a pinball machine. I have so many thoughts, so many memories, so much pain, so much hope for the future, and it’s all jumbled up inside my brain and it’s easy to lose the… Read more
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The Power of Forgiveness
When It’s Not Some Cheap Grace Thank you to everyone who read my blog yesterday. I hope and pray that in some small way it has helped you to tell your own stories and that you will know that you are not alone. I am grateful for all of the kind, caring and encouraging messages… Read more
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Spiritual Abuse
My Soul Survivor Experience Up until now I have not felt safe in sharing my experience. I have lived in fear of sticking my head above the parapet and leaving myself open for yet more abuse and shame. But in light of the incredible bravery of the likes of Matt and Beth Redman in their… Read more